why do i forsee darkness

why do i forsee a divorce in my future. techonology will be the downfall of me
i'm better off being dumb and ignorant off all situation
where is the line and what is skirting it

i gave it all up

its just been me and you

but still to this day
you want to have another baby
but why are you such a flirt


i feel like breaking you phone

if you want me than stay with me if not grab your stuff and go

i dont want to be the only person 100 percent committed

i hate this i hate to be forgivving

why can't i walk away

i cant do that to my daughter even if it ruins me

even if it ruins my heart i have to be here for her

does she know what love is
no she doesnt

god i dont care what happened to you in the past

today is the only thing that matters.

irrational

i'm sure its just an irrational feeling but sometimes you never know
you don't know what the other person is thinking
you don't know what the other person is feeling
you have no idea what motivates them
and everyone is culpable of mistakes and accidents.

once something happens is it ever possible to go back
to think or act as in the way it was before

the mind and the heart is always at struggle for humanity has too many desires
and way too much knowledge.

so thats what it comes to, a guard has to be put up.

It's so hard to change. We're creatures of habit. Eating sleeping peeing thinking
we have to have our routine and our traditions.


maybe its just my bummed out time. I get so cooped up with work and home life.
and i try to not be like that cause it's not fair since adriane has to have the same problem.
I do let her go out and have fun yet its so hard for me to do that.

Just stuck in a groove right now. Revisiting old situations.

Alas here we are

wish i could just close my eyes, listen to music and smoke my hookah...