MindHeist

So it's been a few moments since I've blogged last and well that's happens from time to time for me.
Life gets in the way. but who says that's a bad thing. It's been an actually summer for me.
Parties, friends, playgrounds and some brews. There's a nice settling in the ground I'm standing on. The path is getting clearer and the horizon isn't a million miles away. Everyday is another potential milestone. and I welcome that. I'll be having a son soon. and my daughter is getting older by the minute. and so am I. Having kids is like watching an hourglass fall, knowing when all the grains have fell it's all over. Everyday she gets older I'm forced to do the same. So why not have another one. December will be here before we all know it. and once again we have to play this tune again. waking up all hours of night. bottles. diapers. rollingcrawlingwalkingtalkingpottyschool same tune different rhythm. where will I be in all of this. run down? worn out? defiant? confident? enthused?!?! or just tired. I'm already nursing another baby, my career. How does on balance that with life. but I still have music. eyes closed. head bobbing. lips moving. words streaming. mind open. feel it all over. there will always be time for the things you like. I have to remember that. no matter what happens in my life, i can always close my eyes and envision a world of my own. and why not escape the moments you can.


So I close my eyes. and believe in the life i see behind my mind. and what has changed. nothing. listening to music while my family sleeps is what i want at this moment. They're safe and I'm happy. who cares about struggles and conflict. at night all is still even resentment. and all i need to feel is the air thru my lungs. that means i'm still alive.