the belief in truth.

It's hard for me to write with out music playing. some type of indie song playing in the background its not really my fault i blame it on Hollywood. Who gives us this appeal of having a soundtrack. And who wouldn't want a soundtrack. Music has been around since the dawn of time before we could talk and form words. We know grunts and beats. Bangs and booms. That's why music and emotion are so intertwined with one another. It's why most of us would choose a CD over anything if we were stuck on an island. Music tells the best stories because they tell the personal ones. It's also good at hiding the truths. Puts you in a frame of mind that is outside reality. The your life as a movie instead of your life as a life. And I do not pretend to forget that this life is real. I am human and prone to wander off in a day dream state. To wonder about the what if's and the what not. It's really easy to point out someone elses faults than to acknowledge our own. It's only human to assume that we are right before we realize that we may be wrong. Yet there are paths to take and stones to step on. It's easy to slip and forget the path we were on until one day you look back and realize that 10 years has gone by and you don't know where you are. The surroundings are familiar but not for the right reasons. One can forget there is water when you stuck in the desert. Or forget how to talk when stuck on an island by yourself. It's natural to be comfortable with our surroundings. To stop and look at your life at this particular point in time is hard to do and even harder to change. You have to make the best out of the situation at hand. Because as hard as anyone tries there are no plans there is only happen and chance and if your lucky a little hope. But it only takes a little hope to go a long way. To hope is to ask a favor and its all up to hope. or God. Is God out there helping people steer their ship. A lighthouse in fog. I don't think that's how it works. God doesn't need to do the work only us. It's up to us to steer the ship in the hope of God. It's up to us to have faith in the decisions we make and the actions we pursue. God can't force his will because there is free will. He can't tell us the truths because there are none. Only the faith in truths we believe. And it's always better to believe in a truth than rely on a lie. Nothing is face value only the value you put in it. So I believe I am making the right decisions and only I can decide if they truly are. The life I have right now may not be the best but it's the best I can do right now. So what happened a few weeks ago is only that something that happened a few weeks ago. I can only go off the actions I have taken and react to the actions that has been taken before me. A family is only as strong as the lifeline is has behind it. And can only survive by the strength of the lifeline in front of it. The longer the rope the mightier the sway. So I have to hold on tight to the people I love and believe in the truth. And I know the truth says I'm a 25 year old man working hard at his job to provide for his family to make sure that our life can be lived the way we want our life to be lived. With hope and happiness.