Introspect.

Contemplation of ones thoughts, of ones emotions, of ones life. I find myself everynight before I lay down and go to bed, that my mind spins the wheels of time. It's busy figuring out the past and piecing together the future, cause I mean everything we do is for the future. You don't grab a twinkie because your hungry at that moment, but because you will be hungry in the future. Moments don't last long enough for you to live and act in them. It's just a constant battle between the past and the future, and obviously caught in between is your present. Interesting how it's the present. It's your gift. The present, cause ultimately you can't live in the future or the past. So here is a gift that is so precious that it changes lives. Life is supposed to be about the present. Yet the present is you one second from now or one second ago. I work hard in the present so I can have a good future. I want a good future. I just want so many things right now. And I just want one thing in particular right now. But no one hands you wants, only needs. My best relationships are with people i have no chance with. I don't like those odds.