I Suppose.
I don't understand today's mentality of being short sided. Of being narrow minded. It's like everyone has ownership, protection of what they think, to the point of cutting people down, belittling ideology. No can just say one thing about what they feel or think, without someone aiming for the knee-cap. Contradiction is that the way of life. Socrates says The Unexamined Life isn't worth living, what he didn't mean was to cut people down. To have obscure imagery. No one trully knows each other, I may have known your for 20 years or 20 minutes, but who you are is buried so far underneath that who I am to say you are not what you say. Granted I don't mean extremes to this. I don't mean if you walk up to me and say you have wings when you obviously don't. I mean the subtleties of life. The insignifcant but meaning full attributes that everyone feels. and needs to feel. I have spent my whole life (even before my mom passing away) of giving people the benefit of the doubt, and yes I know people can be inherently mean or downright evil, yet that might be a risk I take. I look for the good I don't dig out the bad. I can't escape this, I go to work and people constantly picking people apart for things that in reality to really matter to my or their lives. Even if they lied about how much money their husband makes, do I really care? I care enough that they said what they said because there is a reason they said it. Insecurities, uncertainties, I'm not immune to them, why should I feel the need call them out, or belittle them behind their backs. I respect the point of what they say, the inbetween the lines. Nobodies perfect. So what's the point of having skewed minds about each other. What is their to gain. You say you love pirates and you want to move to the ocean, well great, that's awesome, no matter if you get sea sickness or never been on a boat before.
Everyone has the right to feel what they feel as long as it doesn't affect other peoples right to feel what they feel. That is the most inherit thing in modern philosophy, and what governs us, and what should be the way we treat each other. Lindsay has really taught me more than she will ever know, cause she goes on and on about what she wants to do and what she wants to be, even if it changes every few minutes. Her point was that it's her life and she has the ability to do all that. I admit I use to say no you can't do that, and have a blunt attitude about it. Point being was that she feels what she feels, if she puts out a little bit of effort about what she feels than who am I to judge. If you show me a sign that you want to do this or be this or go there or feel this, than exactly.
I've just been so frustrated about people lately. I try my hardest to adapt myself to people. To act and say thing thats I would want to be done to myself. Than I do and there is no reciprocity. I hide my emotions but that doesn't mean I don't have them. Do I put a mask on sometimes and play the part, yeah. It's the political science and salesmen in me. I give everyone a fair chance in what they think. I use to feel protective of my ideas, of wanting people to match up to them, but now I look back at Lindsay and people I thought I knew, like Laura, no one is as clear cut in your mind as you think. I try not to pass judgements anymore extremely large judgements and small judgements, those are the ones who hurt the worse. I know it's hard to tell what someone feels, nearly impossible. I also know that when someone says something that I shouldn't always cut it down and dissect and give my contradictive opinion on it. There is just this strict feeling of being individuality with my generation. So individual that people don't want others to be individual, or go near there individuality. I did it too for a long time with Lindsay, I didn't want her near my music and books, and just general talk. Cause I felt like it was mine, and Lindsay did the same thing, that is why she was always changing what she thought and felt about the future. Fact of the matter is no one is that individual, everyone is unique but not individual. I've had a blog for almost 5 years now (granted it has been spread out between 3 sites) yet I don't call people blogging now adays following a trend, I call it people doing what they feel like they want to do, more people doesn't mean what it is, is now less. or they are but mere sheep, their just doing something they like, really simple as that. No want's to be part of an idea to be alone.
Sometimes I just don't get it. I keep telling my friends that you get out of life what you put in it. If your mean to people it'll seem like people are mean to you (if not just mean). If your depressed about life than life will be depressing. If you don't give people a chance than what chance do you have. If there is a problem in your life there are connections of you causing it. It's simple as that, I feel like girl's aren't into me and i'm afraid of them because I'm lonely and deep down I don't mind being lonely. even further I have issues with me being alone because my Mom dieing basically meant that i'm alone. I have ownership of it. The only difference is that I understand my problem and it in no way controls my life. If I wanted to get a date I could but right now I like sitting at home and listening to music. All this to say that people get the wrong ideas about each other so very often. and the reason is they take this idea and wrap the person around it, rather based on fact or fiction. Opinions don't matter, in the fact of having a life changing moment, but they do count if you put a lot of yourself in people. I try hard to be a man of geniality.
I'm just frustrated at life, because I'm frustrated at myself.
Everyone has the right to feel what they feel as long as it doesn't affect other peoples right to feel what they feel. That is the most inherit thing in modern philosophy, and what governs us, and what should be the way we treat each other. Lindsay has really taught me more than she will ever know, cause she goes on and on about what she wants to do and what she wants to be, even if it changes every few minutes. Her point was that it's her life and she has the ability to do all that. I admit I use to say no you can't do that, and have a blunt attitude about it. Point being was that she feels what she feels, if she puts out a little bit of effort about what she feels than who am I to judge. If you show me a sign that you want to do this or be this or go there or feel this, than exactly.
I've just been so frustrated about people lately. I try my hardest to adapt myself to people. To act and say thing thats I would want to be done to myself. Than I do and there is no reciprocity. I hide my emotions but that doesn't mean I don't have them. Do I put a mask on sometimes and play the part, yeah. It's the political science and salesmen in me. I give everyone a fair chance in what they think. I use to feel protective of my ideas, of wanting people to match up to them, but now I look back at Lindsay and people I thought I knew, like Laura, no one is as clear cut in your mind as you think. I try not to pass judgements anymore extremely large judgements and small judgements, those are the ones who hurt the worse. I know it's hard to tell what someone feels, nearly impossible. I also know that when someone says something that I shouldn't always cut it down and dissect and give my contradictive opinion on it. There is just this strict feeling of being individuality with my generation. So individual that people don't want others to be individual, or go near there individuality. I did it too for a long time with Lindsay, I didn't want her near my music and books, and just general talk. Cause I felt like it was mine, and Lindsay did the same thing, that is why she was always changing what she thought and felt about the future. Fact of the matter is no one is that individual, everyone is unique but not individual. I've had a blog for almost 5 years now (granted it has been spread out between 3 sites) yet I don't call people blogging now adays following a trend, I call it people doing what they feel like they want to do, more people doesn't mean what it is, is now less. or they are but mere sheep, their just doing something they like, really simple as that. No want's to be part of an idea to be alone.
Sometimes I just don't get it. I keep telling my friends that you get out of life what you put in it. If your mean to people it'll seem like people are mean to you (if not just mean). If your depressed about life than life will be depressing. If you don't give people a chance than what chance do you have. If there is a problem in your life there are connections of you causing it. It's simple as that, I feel like girl's aren't into me and i'm afraid of them because I'm lonely and deep down I don't mind being lonely. even further I have issues with me being alone because my Mom dieing basically meant that i'm alone. I have ownership of it. The only difference is that I understand my problem and it in no way controls my life. If I wanted to get a date I could but right now I like sitting at home and listening to music. All this to say that people get the wrong ideas about each other so very often. and the reason is they take this idea and wrap the person around it, rather based on fact or fiction. Opinions don't matter, in the fact of having a life changing moment, but they do count if you put a lot of yourself in people. I try hard to be a man of geniality.
I'm just frustrated at life, because I'm frustrated at myself.
posted by Tim Zimm | 8:12 PM
1 Comments:
Man Tim, I think you're so cool. Sorry I just got around to reading this post but I wanted to make sure I could really read it. I hope I get to see ya this weekend.
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