Walk along to another day.

You ever want something to change your life, ever banked on it, put everything you have in it, hopeing all that you have. Hoping this change in your life would set off a chain of events culminating into this life that you had once envisioned but somehow lost track of. Seeing all your wrongs , right. Just hopeing, hopeing that this can bring a peice of mind. Settle all the unsettles. Calm the worrisome in yourself. The erosion of the soul fading. Put so much into this one action that it has to work, for the mere fact it has to work.

It's a crossroads, but it's simple. Theres a moment when your home that you grew up in , isn't your home. The feelings not the same, the comfort, the safety, the love is different. or indifferent. It's a metaphor for life. Leaving everything behind and experience something new, life.

This move is simple. It's nothing new. It's not innovative, original, creative, unique, important, extreme, different. But it's something. Something that needs to happen. It's the cause to all my effects. It's a movement towards what is my life. It's a place where my belongings can be mine, my rules are law, to try something new and keep the same. Find myself in who I am. and who I am is in need of this.

I just see all these things that can come from pulling in responsibility, living on your own, force feeding yourself into living instead of skidding by. I'm tired of not excelling, of not applying myself. I feel like I can do anything, but something is holding me back. I'm holding me back. Why, well thats a question we all ask ourselves. I feel so smart and capable. but i'm never sure if I am. I feel medocre because I am. Is taht my destiny or am I holding myself back. Or am I holding something that is holding me back.

I'm never to sure, but who can be.