good music

sometimes all you need is to just sit down ignore all put some head phones on and listen to some good music. Rediscovering some old favorites and just zoning out.

2009 was quite a year for me. I have found myself more settled into the life i am living. I have dealt with my ups and downs threw some tears around and picked myself up a few times. Amazing how fast a year can move. Amazing how memories start to fade. I randomly laugh sometimes when i'm reminded of an old memory. Going through my blogs over the past year and even decade its amazing how one person can grow.

10 years ago i was 15, freshman in high school wide eyed, i hadnt even begun to get out of my shell. After years of growing, watching my mom die, finding love and losing love, College life, working life, parties and friendships to today where I'm the family man now.

As every year goes by more responsibility is lapped up on me. But that is just what happens.

I'm happy with my life today, it took many decision pitfalls and confidence to get here. Sometimes when i close my eyes i like to think about where my life would be had I done this or that or went here instead of there. How events have forever changed me, and how others were merely forgotten.

All the people who have influenced my life, there is so many to thank. I know today I don't have as nearly enough of friends that I use to have. And that is mostly my fault. and how i miss them all can't even be spoken, there are no words than can explain.

So this is now, and this is where i'm at. Working 60 hours a week, to be broke. A family that loves me and the few friends I talk to. but i like it.

I still have the right to dream. To think of what could have been. to daydream of a different life.

I still have the right to believe. To think of the hope that lies with in. to sing the songs.

I still have the right to be human. To be who I am. To love everyone and kiss the night goodbye