I wish...

I wish lots of things everyday, every other thought if not sex involves a wish. From trivial things like a unnecessary conversation to catching a light to reading a mind. When you wish for something it's almost as if saying you are ungrateful for the life you have. Life is not perfect but it should be suffice. Every time I get in my car at night as dark is the night is as wide is my mind. There are so many things that without even realizing it, thinking about it, or noticing it I wish for something else something better something different something new something old something to occur. But there are no I wishes. Just this is'es. Just the situation you are in when you wish. But like everything else it's the outcome that matters more than the input.


I wish my window would roll down.
I wish I could pay my bills.
I wish I had more comfortable shoes.
I wish I was 25 pounds lighter.
I wish I was more attractive.
I wish my hair could be tames.
I wish it would rain cold drops on me every morning.
I wish I could drive all night and not get tired.
I wish there was a soundtrack to my life.
I wish I didn't want so many things.
I wish my job didn't occupy so much of my life.
I wish I had my friends back.
I wish there were more hookah conversations.
I wish for one more kiss in the rain.
I wish I had another chance.
I wish I lived in NYC.
I wish I could write like JD Salinger.
I wish I could play Piano.
I really wish I could play piano.
I wish I could replay some of my dreams.
I wish i could replay some memories as dreams.
I wish I wasn't afraid to climb down ladders.
I wish I could get really drunk one more time.
I wish I taught philosophy in a high school.
I wish I could have a cup of coffee with out gagging.
I wish I could have a cup of coffee with my high school sweetheart.
I wish my brother would act like a brother.
I wish my family was much closer.
I wish my hadn't died of cancer.
I wish I didn't ignore the fact my mom died of cancer.
I wish I didn't have some memories of my mom dieing of cancer.
I wish Adriane could see things from my eyes.
I wish I was a better basketball player.
I wish I wasn't so nervous.
I wish it was winter already.
I wish I never went to my summer internship in Alabama.
I wish I could be invisible.
I wish I didn't put others in front of me all the time.
I wish friends would betray me.
I wish I could drive to Waco and meet up with an old friend.
I wish I could spend Christmas day playing in the snow at Washington square park.
I wish I didn't have to wish for things to come true.


Thats what you get when you stay up too late in the dark. You get a mouthful of mindful.