Lindsay.
I am not too sure how it happened. Or even why it happened. There is no understanding. No one can understand life. and it's predictaments. Life and Love. They are always combating. Life doesn't want love to be constant. and Love wants life to realize the importance. They can and will come together. At time when you don' even realize it. Stuff came out of no where yesterday. Unexpectasies. Things I just believe wouldn't happen. Things i got told from her wouldn't happen. Happened. Alas the misunderstandings of life. You can't tell life and love what to do. They work seperately from any one person. They always move forward independent of our lives. The only way we can participate in either is to take a step. To make a movement. To risk it all. I told myself not to fall again. I reminded myself of everything that has happened. I let go of emotions that were locked in. I let my brain win. I told life I'm ok with where I'm at. Love is great but it's not a neccessacity. Once you accept your situation in life. It changes. The ever constant moving scenery of life. That's what i love about it. You never know whats going to happen. I try so hard to plan life. I put forth small idea's of what i want to do. I envision little futures of what i want. You can't tell life where you want it to take you. You can only move in that direction. And if life is stubborn enough it will force you to take that path.
Things with lindsay has changed. On friday i spent all day with her. The night before she told me about a terrible date she was on. We've all been there. Somebody who seemed interesting. Someone you though you could connect with. The only problem is that they connected with you while you were frozen in fear of them. They are not who you thought. You don't enjoy them. Get away fast. Nobody want's to be stuck with anyone who tries so hard and only ends up being fake. I've been there.
We hang out. We have fun. We laugh. and smile. see each other Eye's. We cuddled. It felt good. Love always feel's good. Love makes all the wrongs in the world seem bearable. You can walk a mile on glass. Make the game winning shot. Love can back you up. She's beautiful. Love. Lindsay is love to me. We made love. It was merely incindental. It wasn't contrived. It wasn't forced. It was relaxed. It happened. We fell asleep. She was unsure. I was unsure. This whole situation hadn't played out in either of our heads. She thought she was over me. I knew she was over me. But there's something serene when it comes to Looking a girl in the eyes while making love and tell her that she is the most beautiful person in the world and mean it. I did that. It wasn't planned. At that time (and for anytime for that matter) I saw in her blue eyes everything that was beautiful. She really is the most beautiful girl. She's not perfect. But no one is. Life wouldn't be life if everyone was perfect. The ticks of life make you realize why the good is so important. Yet even things than was uncertain. She was confused. As was I. I thought those emotions had long left me. I was content with life as lindsay as a good friend. I always knew i love her and want her back but I knew it wasn't my decision. Love can not be one sided. Love is a partnership.
Tonight. Tonight. Things were normal. The normal of us. She sat on my lap at the computer. We played around. We cuddled on the couch. We felt what was important. What was and had always been a constant. Us. I never left her side. I had plent of chances to lose her forever. I didn't want that. I pushed through all the muck to muscle a friendship. I was there to help her out. She let me in. She was afraid. She didn't have to. She let me in cause she knew I will always be there for her. Lindsay means so much to my life. And that is why I believe success is imimenint. Life and love have to co exsist. One can not out weigh the other. Life is what you make of it. Love is how you believe in it. Take chances. Be bold. Grab that uncertainty feeling and accept that it can only be temporary. Life can be good. Life will be good.
She kissed me goodnight tonight. Life is good.
Things with lindsay has changed. On friday i spent all day with her. The night before she told me about a terrible date she was on. We've all been there. Somebody who seemed interesting. Someone you though you could connect with. The only problem is that they connected with you while you were frozen in fear of them. They are not who you thought. You don't enjoy them. Get away fast. Nobody want's to be stuck with anyone who tries so hard and only ends up being fake. I've been there.
We hang out. We have fun. We laugh. and smile. see each other Eye's. We cuddled. It felt good. Love always feel's good. Love makes all the wrongs in the world seem bearable. You can walk a mile on glass. Make the game winning shot. Love can back you up. She's beautiful. Love. Lindsay is love to me. We made love. It was merely incindental. It wasn't contrived. It wasn't forced. It was relaxed. It happened. We fell asleep. She was unsure. I was unsure. This whole situation hadn't played out in either of our heads. She thought she was over me. I knew she was over me. But there's something serene when it comes to Looking a girl in the eyes while making love and tell her that she is the most beautiful person in the world and mean it. I did that. It wasn't planned. At that time (and for anytime for that matter) I saw in her blue eyes everything that was beautiful. She really is the most beautiful girl. She's not perfect. But no one is. Life wouldn't be life if everyone was perfect. The ticks of life make you realize why the good is so important. Yet even things than was uncertain. She was confused. As was I. I thought those emotions had long left me. I was content with life as lindsay as a good friend. I always knew i love her and want her back but I knew it wasn't my decision. Love can not be one sided. Love is a partnership.
Tonight. Tonight. Things were normal. The normal of us. She sat on my lap at the computer. We played around. We cuddled on the couch. We felt what was important. What was and had always been a constant. Us. I never left her side. I had plent of chances to lose her forever. I didn't want that. I pushed through all the muck to muscle a friendship. I was there to help her out. She let me in. She was afraid. She didn't have to. She let me in cause she knew I will always be there for her. Lindsay means so much to my life. And that is why I believe success is imimenint. Life and love have to co exsist. One can not out weigh the other. Life is what you make of it. Love is how you believe in it. Take chances. Be bold. Grab that uncertainty feeling and accept that it can only be temporary. Life can be good. Life will be good.
She kissed me goodnight tonight. Life is good.
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